Cold and Lonely

I've grown tired of counting the days or months that I have been single.

I've never talked about how it ended and now I think I'm ready to write about it.

Honestly there is no one to blame but me anyway.

I admit i feel very bitter. I probably pushed him to his limit and he got tired.

I keep looking for something perfect when I know that I could never have

everything at all but it's alright. No regrets. If we are meant for

each other we'd see each other again but there is the uncertainty if we are

be going to be together if ever it will indeed come.

There's the question too that will he ever accept me again?

I'm not hoping.

Yes, there's a little hope but not too much that it will keep me waiting for him.

I've let him go and for now I don't want to have a boyfriend.

Ayokong magsalita ng tapos kaya lang mukang ayaw ko na magka boyfriend ulit.

I am open to dating and hopefully someone would save me from my misery

and loneliness then fall in love. This is the first time that I felt really lonely for

my birthday and upcoming christmas. I have my friends and all but I'm not used

to being single I guess but I'll get used to it. Somehow.

I still love him to the point that I want to get a tattoo so that even if i get him off my

mind I'll always have him under my skin blacked in ink. - Ymylle.

Big Turn On And Turn Offs

Long time no post. Finally an update. Haha.
Inspired? Nah. Buying time.

I think it's already been a month now that I've been single and so far so good.
Actually I've been enjoying the set up. Don't want any responsibilities.
Date Date Date.

Ayoko na nung tipong may aalalahanin pa ko kapag umalis tapos hindi nagpaalam sakin kung san pupunta o vice versa. Yung nag papaalam ako sa kinauukulan na masahol pa sa magulang. May nagbabawal. Selos. In short, ayoko na ng may nakiki alam sakin. Haha. Nightmare ako maging girlfriend. Jowk.

I've decided to have this set up because I'm not ready for a committed relationship yet. I don't quite remember being single anyway. For all the past I've always exerted effort to the point of getting hurt and left disappointed.
All of us, of course when we meet someone we fell in love with wants to be with him or her forever. Clearly, that did not happen to me which is fine. I'm young. Need not to be in a hurry.

Since I'm talking about my singleness and celebrating the dating game.
I'll reveal the biggest turn off and turn ons.
( As if someone's interested to know anyway.)

First Turn Ons
1) Chinky Eyed Guys
- Big Sucker for those guys. Asian looking guys not to the point of it's OA already that he looks like a korean boy band. I don't actually look for the overall face. Not looking for a handsome guy but at first glance always looks for the eyes. Like they say, mirror of the soul.

2) Responsible
- Need someone who's not a potato couch that lies around all day, eats then sleeps. Don't need a rich guy but someone who plans and thinks for the future.

3) Maturity
- Don't do drama on me because surely I'll punch the face. And insecurity do not sell to me.

4) Clean
- I want a presentable guy who I can bring to my mom. I'm not discriminating or anything but I don't like small guys in big shirts with caps then baggy pants.

There, probably the most of it for the turn on.

Here's for the Turn offs:

1) Promise Breakers
- No need to make a promise if someone's going to break it anyway. It's useless. Just words out of thin air. No committment.

2) Liar Liar Liar - Big Fat Liar
- What's the point of doing it anyway? If I have a bf let's say for example then he have somewhere to go to with friends or what not, why not tell me honestly than telling me that you're in the office or doing something else. Another thing, if i ask a question, be sure to answer it truthfully because whatever the reason even if i get mad the results will still be the same since when I find out that it's a lie, the situation will probably get worst. Basically love is founded on trust. If you don't trust a person, will you love him? No.

3) Insecure / Selfish
- Don't like a guy who always compares or gets mad when I'm not spending time with him. I hate it when my time is alloted for one specific person. It's like "did you buy me or my time already? You don't own me". I want my space. I still like privacy. If I'm open to something, won't hide it anyway. Don't need to spy or look into my accounts/ cellphone without permission. Ask. It won't hurt.

4) Choosy / Picky/ Pihikan when it comes to food
- I like to cook and eat. I don't like someone who's super picky and doesn't eat his veggies!

5) Snoring


There. That serves as my list.
Hope I get many date. Haha.

Karate Kid!

I've always been a fan of the Karate Kid movie. Even the 1984 film, I never fail to watch whenever I catch in HBO.


With the 2010 Karate Kid movie staring Jaden Smith and Jackie Chan, it has the similar story. The underdog and the bully.


It all started out with Dre (Jaden Smith) moved to china with his mom. He was adjusting to a totally different country and culture plus with no friends. He definitely doesn't have any choice.
Mr Han (Jackie Chan) was his mentor.

I don't want to actually ruin and tell it all here. You really have to watch it for yourself because it's totally far much more better than the karate kids movie that I've watch. It has a certain twist and a lot of things to look for especially the funny part.

It worth the money, time and I don't regret waiting for it ever since I saw the trailer.
Two Thumbs up. x]]

Lots,

Mapi

Goodbye friend. Nice meeting you.

Before you proceed in reading this entry, I must warn you that this is dramatic.

It all started because I have this friend at work. We were okay not until I was confused by certain events. Well, he said "gusto kita" which was fine because I'm not boasting or anything but it happened like a hundred times already.

The policy that I have "pag tropa, tropa. walang talo talo."

The mess started when he suddenly ask me things and one that really blew my fuse was this - "Mahal mo ba ko?" Now how did we get there? He was actually inviting me to go out with friends to drink or something with him inviting some girl. I said, "Why are you asking permission? I do not owe you." I also said that I'm not gonna go because it's gonna be awkward. Not the mention, I was the one with him when we were out and then the next thing he's gonna get someone to go with us. I don't have any to right but that particular place that he mentioned that we were going to was a little bit special.

I have always been picky with friends and I have but a few precious ones.
I admit I value him. He's one of them.

And i don't just go and tag along with whom ever that invites me. And then he assumed and asked that stupid question which was useless to answer. As I recall, I did not show any action or signs that I love him. I'm always fair. What you see is what you get. I've always been sweet. For those who knew me, they know that I'm one of the boys. I always get the rumor that whoever sticks with me is my bf. I always shrug that off.

Since he asked that particular question I had to ask "Ano ba ko sayo?". Even if a guy said that he liked me I would never assume. I would always act like he said nothing like that. Be normal. I wanted to know simply because I wanna know my place.

He answered with a very stupid answer - "Di ko alam". It's unacceptable.

I started to change. I did not talk to him and pretend like he was air.

I know he didn't want me to loose me as a friend because as he said I'm the only one close to him. We would always wait for each other then set up computer together. Share food and drink. Laugh. Throw jokes. People would always tease us. That's how we were. That's the picture.

When I asked my place, he couldn't answer it directly. He would always avoid or have it answered indirectly, incomplete. Unclear. Since, I couldn't get the answer that I wanted. I had to end it and said that there's a lot of people specifically girls that he can replace me with. And he said another thing that not only blew my fuse but made me really angry. He said that there were "No physical contact" with those girls. I'm like "Hindi ako bagay na pwede mo nalang idisplay at hawak hawakan kung kelan mo gusto. Nasasaktan din naman ako." I'm human and I have a heart. Although I look tough, of course I get hurt.
And the last thing that really ended this was "Tang ina ka pala eh. Alam ko bang magiging close tayo? Ginusto ko ba to?" That was it. Finishing line.

For the one's that I've talked with, they know that I did my part. I tried to save what he have. The worst part of it all, we are team mates. So yeah, it's hard for the both of us. Nobody won. We both loose. There was no give and take. There was no compromise. There was no agreement.

He owes me an apology because I value respect. Sure. He can always act like that with his parents, other friends, girl friends or whatever but I'm different. It's true that I should accept him for what he is because I met him he's like that already but I can't adjust for him. That's not always the case. I can't change for someone so that I can make them happy neither will he do. I'm just gonna let it go.

The one thing that really frustrates me the most with this issue is that He chose pride over friendship. It's pathetic. He said that I don't know him but I can see right through him. I can read what he feels even If he would put up a smile. He already opened himself to me. Funny things is, he can't read me.

I've always been alone.

Even if, I don't have friends at work I can function. Professionalism.
Pride always kept me going but I know that it can be my downfall that's why when I hold on to that I know I'm right.

Like I said I'm upset but my world is not going to stop for him.
I'm gonna get over it because it's already over.
I'm gonna move on after this entry.


Goodbye friend. Nice meeting you.



I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
- Lyrics from What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts

lots,
mapi

May 10 2010 Elections

In my last post I was going to vote for Noynoy but at the last minute, I changed my mind. I went for Gibo.

I have nothing against those people who voted for Noynoy.
I'm fine with him being our president because I'm sure the whole country will be keeping an eye for him and remember his slogan "Kung walang korupt, walang mahirap". I know that he would do his best to be a good president. He won, fair and square so let's just respect that because obviously majority wins. Democracy. I hope that people would learn to concede and not talk shit. The way I see it, people like that are just plain losers. Sourgraping. It's annoying because reality sucks. We can't please everybody.

My basis for me going for Gibo because he doesn't talk much. He doesn't really bash other candidates like everybody else is doing. Another thing, by comparing him and Noynoy, I've decided that he really does have a concrete platform (in my pov). I think what let him down was that the Administration did not give him full support and a lot of them went "balimbing". Iniwanan sya sa ere. Then a lot of people didn't give him a chance because they've set their mind he's the current administration's candidate thus he's gonna do the samething that PGMA did in our country. By all means, all of the Filipino people know that and I don't need to explain much further because it's gonna be negative post.

Anyway, as for the elections, I was lucky to be voting for the first time and had to experience the automation. A lot of people, complained but over all I think this system is much better than the old one. Everyone should understand that it's the first time. There's lots of room for improvement like for example, more pcos machine to accomodate more people. There was a really long line, so lesson learned - wake up early then vote early. There should be a separate room/line for seniors or disabled to avoid hassle. No offense but they are really slow considering the fact that during their time there was no computer. There should be added people to assist them too so that they can be educated on how to properly vote. For those who are in the line or waiting there should be covered sheds, accesible bathrooms and available water to drink. They should also appoint someone who would watch over the line to check if somebody collapsed already or makes "singit" to the line. So there. That will be all.

By the way, found this on the internet.




HEHE.

lots,
mapi

Mother's Day

I already have plans on what to give for my mom. Actually, every occasion I want to make her cry. The tears of joy. I see to it that whatever it is that I'm going to give, it must be memorable and have it personalized if applicable.

I bought a starbucks mug where you can put your picture inside. I have materials, a picture of her then a dedication.

It was really a stressful work because I only had one day to do it. I had to shop, choose design, make a simple message and put it all together yesterday at home. I had to work cautiously so that she won't caught me doing it. It's hard because every night before going to sleep, she does the usual. She would go to my room then rant rant rant then ask me about my day which I really appreciate by the way. And unfortunately for me, my door doesn't have a door knob. Good thing was bf was there. He was the one who was carrying the paper bag and stuff when we came home so she didn't notice or became suspicious or anything. He was my lookout. Couldn't have done it without him. A big thank you to him!

It took me two hours or so of work on the project. I'm very happy with the outcome. It didn't look like it was rushed off. It was nice. The theme was like retro like then have flowers as an added design. Too bad that I didn't have time to have it pictured because I was scared she might see it. It's a surprise. Hehe. But if I have time, I'll take a shot of it then post it here. After finishing, I had to hide the gift.

I was pretty tired and exhausted. Walking around. Looking around. I had to look for a starbucks that sells that mug. The northgate store doesn't have stock. I had to go to festival mall then look for the store too because it's newly opened. It was traffic going home. And I didn't eat that night. I still had a good night sleep though. Thank gawd I'm day shift! ♥

Results? She shed a tear and said thank you. Very heart warming. The gift wasn't much but at least she was able to appreciate what I've done. It was worth it.




Wish I could do more because she deserves everything. My mom and I had a lot of misunderstandings. BIG ones but we were able to patch things up and we are closer than ever. Our relationship just got stronger because of trials. It just sometimes makes me weak and cry inside because deep inside you know that she wants something but you can't give it because it's not attainable or impossible. It's sad I know but bad things comes to an end. It's not forever. All I can do NOW is make her feel a little bit better, ease the pain; that once in awhile she can be happy even for just a split second. All I'm praying is for still keep it strong and don't loose hope not only for me but for my brothers as well.

For all the moms out there,



For my mom, she won't get to read this but like I always tell her:
I love you and everything that I do is for you and our family.


lots,
mapi

Tumblr.

I'm fond of blogging so I tried the new trend thing which is tumblr although I already have my blogspot account. When I tried it, it's really hard to use (based on my pov) because there's no comment button . The only thing that it will do is reblog, click the heart to like the post and there's sometimes a reply button but I don't actually know if it does work. I don't really like post stuff there because I don't have a cam with me all the time. I have a cam phone but it would be nice if it's gonna be digicam; obviously because of the resolution and clarity of the image. Aside from that, I don't have the time to take pictures just to post every hour or every update. I don't have PC or internet at home too. It would explain why I'm like a million years to update. I apologize for that. Hehe. I don't wanna be an internet addict like the old days when I was in high school or college but I appreciate all the people that I've met over the net and will meet. Anyway, I prefer this type of blog because if someone comments I would know that they really wasted their time on my blog just to read unlike in tumblr they're just gonna browse. If the reader likes what they see, click click but no opinion involved. Aside from that fact here I can express whatever I feel. Okay, I know a picture would say a thousand words but for me like it when direct to the point. Say whatever you wanna say. No more beating around the bush. And for the images with writing on it, it would really make time to make those. I know photoshop but I'm no pro. The last thing that I've noticed is that there are a lot of followers on a popular account but doesn't really talk to the owner. So, if in that sense, it's like friendster LOADS of stalkers. This to make it clear, I have nothing against stalkers and I don't wanna be one actually. It's creepy. Having said all these, I still like tumblr because I follow some great people. Some are friends and some are friends that like what I've mentioned a while ago friends over the net. I make sure that these people I follow are really interesting, worth of my time and I can learn something from them because I don't wanna see worthless post on my dashboard every time I open my account I make it to a point that every now and then, I would say hi to the people I follow by using the ask button. This is just a random post. I don't have anything against the people who really are addict about tumblr. I just want to post some of the things that I've noticed upon using this site based on my experience.

That's all.

lots,
mapi

Matagal ko na dapat na ipost tong entry nato kaya lang wala lang talaga ako oras. Dapat english tong entry pero malalaman nyo kung bakit tagalog tong entry nato.

Nag simula ang lahat dahil sa pag uusap usap naming mga katrabaho dahil sa sweldo at trabaho. Sabi kasi ng isa kong katrabaho dapat daw mas malaki yung sweldo nya kasi kung tutuusin daw nag downgrade daw sila dahil mula sa international na account eh naging local na account. Siguro pananaw nya yun pero sa tingin ko mas gusto ko yung makipag usap ako sa kapwa ko Pilipino kaysa naman sa saksakan na bobong kano.

Mas masaya ako kasi nga dahil sa local ang account, goodbye night diff na! Ang hirap hirap kaya matulog na tirik na tirik ang araw. Iba pa rin ang ang makatulog sa gabi. Bukod pa run, lagi akong nagkakasakit dahil sa pagtatrabaho ng gabi. Malamang pag tanda ko at lagi parin akong pang gabi, eh magka cancer nako.

Bukod pa roon, makakapag lingkod pa ako sa kapwa ko Pilipino dahil sa totoo lang hindi ko naman pinangarap maging call center agent at buong gabing makipag usap sa mga kano. Napakasakit kasi isipin na nasa Pilipinas ka nga, pero dayuhan ang nagpapasweldo sayo. Hindi nga siya masama pero ang realidad na ang sarili mong bansa hindi ka kayang bigyan ng mas mataas na benepisyo o buhay. At di rin naman ako nangangarap na mangibang bansa dahil iba parin sa kinalakhang bayan. Hindi ko naman sinasabi na kapag dumating yung pagkakataon na pwede ako mag abroad eh tatangihan ko na pero ibig kong sabihin hindi ako itatanggi kung saan ako nanggaling at san ako lumaki. Kahit ano naman ang gawin ko, di ko mababago na Pilipino ako. Kahit may american accent na ako o may green card pa yan.

Kayo? Ano sa tingin nyo?

Reunion

I don’t actually remember when the last time we met up. It was just a typical day when somebody came up of the idea of us hanging out again. There were no plans and we had no money. It just happened like a snap of a finger. One text and we are all set up. Me, dior, madz are at pre’s house. It’s just like the old times. Highschool together with best old friends. We counted years to make this happen again. Honestly, I thought that it was over because along the way we had misunderstandings. But then again, as the years pass by, we became more mature. We were able to mend things up. That night proved that it was still there. The bond called friendship we made was strong. After not seeing each other for a long time, we were able to go back to our youth as if nothing changed. It was like we had no problems. We were able to have loud laughter, never ending stories, jokes and trippings all over again! It was a blast! I really missed them. I’m lucky to have them.

I love you guys!♥

Politics + Showbiz = ? Equals to Negative X.

Saturday night (that was 02-13) , boredom came to me. It was no surprise because I was sleeping all day long. I was having asthma attacks during the past few days plus the fact it’s so freaking hot because of the El Niño phenomenon. Anyway, I saw my little brother with Gigantic dot to dot activity book. He was colouring and when he was done, I borrowed it. I did some of the pictures. Here are the samples. Bear with me. HAHA! xD

Funny noh? Haha. I’m like a kid again. Well, it’s better than lying in my bed again. We have no tv on our own so
it’s really hard to kill time especially that I currently waiting for my work to start.

As I was doing the book, I heard my parent’s tv. Jessica Soho’s show was on and it was about Kris Aquino. I stopped and
watched the episode. It was all about how she was different from her siblings which are all true. She is in the limelight, one of the biggest stars of abs cbn, in demand endorsers, great talk show host and queen of controversy. Meanwhile, her siblings are all quiet but none the less are there whenever she is in trouble. Ready to back her up. Some say that she’s no good when it comes to acting. Bano raw sya. At times yes. In addition to that, she’s opinionated, mataray and taklesa. That’s why a lot of people are really irritated by her including my mom. Malandi raw sya. Mayabang and blah blah blah. The whole country was indeed witness to her roller coaster ride love affairs.

My pov? I honestly like her. First of all, she’s no plastic. She can say whenever she wants to say. On or Off camera. I can see all the transparency, honesty and integrity. What’s the whole point of staying in showbiz if you’re just gonna hide everything? Worst, a lot of stars today are big fat liars. Being watched by millions of people, of course they are gonna criticize you, throw every intrigue they can come up with and then dig up all the dirt. You can’t please everybody. She’s right in saying that everybody has their own opinion and she’s Kris Aquino. Not a pretender. What you see is what you get.

At least she has all the guts to answer questions being thrown at her. This also proves that even if she is a former president’s child that doesn’t make her perfect. Second, she may be a star but she’s not bobo. Always have something to say whether she is asked about showbiz or politics. She’s not just a face but she has the brains. Third, Yeah! She is mayabang but at least she achieved something on her own. She made her own image and her own name amidst her parent’s status. Even though she’s like that, she helps people who are in need, be it in showbiz or ordinary people.
Anyway, I’m already talking about Kris Aquino, recently there’s this buzz about Ruffa walking out because of her. I’ve
watched the clipped and found nothing offensive. Ruffa is just sensitive because she’s already leaving the show. The mother said the Kris is always making bara to her daughter. I understand that Annabelle wants to protect her daughter but I don’t think it's right to shout out on national tv about not voting Noynoy. That's foul. It’s totally non sense and downright humiliating. Now that's what I call bobo. May masabi lang sa TV at makapanira lang. I watched that phone patch and it’s so funny! Kris is Kris and I agree about what she said that if you’re gonna be an onion skin better not be in showbiz. Kris is not Noynoy. And HELLO? Showbiz to politics. Those are two totally different things.

The next day, Sunday. Went to my neighbor's house just to watch the buzz. They were nice enough to let me in. Not really a fan of the show but I got to watch about the crying moment of Kris. It was a bit OA as usual. She did that a lot of times but I do understand her this time because people are really harsh when it comes to comments be it in forums, social networking sites and tabloids. Being judgemental is human's nature. Part of life. It is hard for her because like what she said she is being used to throw nasty things about her family or her brother. Then again, she let's Noynoy use her in campaigning. It's partly her fault too.

Speaking of Noynoy, I’m voting for him. Don’t get me wrong here. It’s not because of his parents, his sisters or the slogan that he’s selling about corruption but because of the values passed on to them. I trust that he’s not gonna do anything that would defile his parent’s name. Especially because her sister is in showbiz. Any controversy will spread out like wild fire. Yeah, there are other candidates that have better platform but these are all promises. He too have promises. All of them have. They are all the same. TALK AND PROMISES ARE FREE. Anybody can do that even if you’re not aiming for a position in the government. I do not believe that all the candidates are clean. They are not perfect as they project to be. They are human. They make mistakes; unintentionally or intentionally. They wouldn't get to where they are now without playing dirty. Traditional Politicians. Like I said, nobody’s perfect. In this case, vote for the lesser evil!

For those who are anti-noynoy, I just find it immature and childish. We are a democratic country but most of the people here lack respect for opinion. Calling stupid all those who are voting Noynoy. SHEESH. Can't we all get along? Whoever's gonna be the next president, he or she can't solve all the country problems in one night or in one term.

Comment Box!

Ugh! Haloscan is shutting down their comment service. Now, I have to find another one. I tried the blogger google comment box but i can't have that because I don't have any idea about the xml template. It will be hard for me to install themes. This is frustrating! Any suggestions?

fashion + music

I don't know whether I'll call myself a fan or not but I just love Lady Gaga. Her music and her fashion. Some may say that she's a poser or a clown but in my point of view, she's just brave and undoubtedly unique. She says whatever she wants and wears whatever she likes. She doesn't even care about what people are going to say to her. In short, She doesn't give a damn and that made her a star today. She is worth watching for. She has talent, the voice and her dance moves are great! Listening to her makes my badtrip of the day go away.



I'm interested in fashion too. But alas, sometimes I'm just far too shy to show off my clothes. I love buying though. LOL. I could only admire and look at other beautiful people. Here are some that suites my taste.




This is pinuna / luisa. I admire her. I don't know if she remembers me or nor but we did talked. That was way way way back. I was still a member and a active member of a certain forum. She was a moderator back then. Not only is she beautiful but she has the brains. A very big brain - full of ideas, opinions and creativity. She's into japanese culture and photography. So cool. ♥



This is Tricia G. Found her while looking at the pinuna and browsing at the site. I don't know her but she looks like a doll to me.



I like this one because it's simple yet it rocks and looks sexy. The hair looks great too. This is owned by Taylin Elisa Yasmin Katharina.

The three of them looks gorgeous to me.

BTW, i do not own their pictures nor am I stealing them.
I'm just admiring them. The links are there for reference. Just click their names.

ANG PINOY AT ANG STARBUCKS

I got this from teentalk. I find it funny and true! Agree!

DISCLAIMER: I do not mean to offend anyone. But the truth hurts. So let's just deal with it!

1. Only in the Philippines will you see people ditching the comfort of sipping a cup of Starbucks coffee inside the airconditioned store and preferring instead to sit outside and be soaked dry by the heat of the tropical sun.

The reason? Kailangan makita ng friends/classmates/kakilala ko na nandito ako sa Starbucks! Magpapakasosyal na lang, e di i-todo ko na.

The lesson? Sit where you would be seen easily the most.

2. Only in the Philippines will you see people bringing their laptops inside the Starbucks store and staying there for hours and hours just to avail of the free Wi-Fi.

The reason: Para mukha talagang sosyal, kailangan busy-busyhan gamit ang laptop habang sip ng coffee. Makikisaksak pa yan para maki-charge at naka cross legs pa sa upuan para feel at home. Feeling bahay ko na itong Starbucks. I own it, you know?

The lesson: Make sure to bring your laptop no matter how heavy it is. The attention you will get is priceless, anyway!

3. Only in the Philippines will you see people giving strange names when asked by the barista for their personal name to be written on the cup. The names oftentimes teeter at the brink of being lewd and/or profane (e.g. Lucky T T or Ba Hoko).

The reason: Siyempre kapag sinigaw ng barista yung name, magtatawanan kami ng circle of friends ko. I got the attention I am so craving for again. They are all looking at me o! Bwahahaha!

The lesson: Be prepared with the most attention-grabbing name (those with sexual innuendos are most recommended) to be written on your cup and later on to be shouted by the drop-dead gorgeous barista who would melt in front of everybody after shouting Lucky T.T. or Ba Hoko.

4. Only in the Philippines will you see people taking pictures of themselves all the time and from all possible angles while sipping their favorite ice-cold frapp. You will be surprised to see how the Starbucks logo is almost always part of the frame!

The reason: I need to upload this in my Multiply, Friendster, Facebook, MySpace, Flickr, Blogspot, Faceparty, hi5, Livejournal, Plurk accountssss-sssssss! I need to anonymously view and comment para maraming views at laging nasa top ako ng page sa updates! My friends need to see na nag Starbucks ako! Sayang P120 ko kapag hindi nila nakita picture ko! Huhuhuhuhuhu....

5. Only in the Philippines will you see people getting a lot of extra sugar, cream and tissue. And when I say a lot, it means its damn too many!

The reason: I paid P150 for my venti java chip mocha frapp, I should at least deserve to get a year's supply of that fiber tissue with the Starbucks logo on them! Sagarin ko na yung binayad ko, and mahal kasi eh! Penge na rin extra, extra, extra sugar ska super extra, extra, extra na cream [Tapos biglang tago sa bag!]

The lesson: Everybody knows that the coffee is overpriced. So get your money's worth! Grab as much fiber tissue, sugar and cream sachets that can fit in your bag! And dont forget to bring a huge bag to begin with!

6. Only in the Philippines will you see people gulping on twenty venti cups of frapp in one night just to get the oh-so-precious Starbucks planner!

The reason: !@#$, lahat may naka display na Starbucks planner sa kamay nila! Dapat ako rin! [Sabay tungga ng dalawampung cups ng venti frap] Kahit mejo tinamaan doon sa coffee overdose, makikipila pa rin para ma claim ang Starbucks planner [khit gaano pa ito ka-cheap tingnan]

The lesson: Secretly ask your friends for their stickers to complete your collection. In that way, you won't be spending 2500 pesos for a stupid-looking planner which you do not intend to write on anyway. Your life is a mess dude! What on earth would you do with a planner/organizer you dumbass!

7. Only in the Philippines will you see people holding on to their Starbucks tumblers while they are, well, practically everywhere - on the streets, inside the train, inside the comfort room, etc. What is ironic is that when nobody is watching, they put in their Nescafe 3-in-1 coffee mix inside their Starbucks tumblers and drink their heart away to cheap coffee. Aaahhhhh, sarap talaga ng 3-in-1!

The reason: Basta may Starbucks logo, sosyal! Kaya kailangan dala-dala ko ito lagi! Keber b nila kung Nescafe 3-in-1 yung nasa tumbler ko! Starbucks ito o! Ayan yung logo, tingnan mo!

The lesson: Never ever let anyone catch you put that Nescafe 3-in-1 coffee mix into your Starbucks tumbler. That will so ruin your reputation among all the Embassy-going folks and ecstasy-sniffing elites out there.

Just as when hundreds of Starbucks stores have started to close shop in every major city around the world, at least three new stores open their doors in Manila [or at least in a lighted street corner somewhere around the city] every month. A bit anomalous isn't it? The truth is that we are perhaps just in the middle of a brewing (pardon me for the intentional pun) coffee craze, or perhaps Starbucks obsession / Starbucks mania / Starbucks phenomenon - call it by any other monicker, but Filipinos are definitely in love with the Seattle-based coffee chain. Now, how on earth could an American export selling coffee for P120 per cup be such a hit in a third world country like the Philippines where half of the population lives on less than P100 a day?

I was once a csr and having coffee is one of your weapon before going to work. I however can't have as much as I want to. I'm acidic and humiliating to admit it whenever I drink coffee I experience gas problems. (Don't want to continuously fart while working and in an airconditioned place. LOL!! X]] ) Anyway, being in this industry and based on my experience, there's really a lot of "show off". No doubt that our pay is higher that the usual minimum wage. That is why, a lot of CSRs are going to starbucks to buy coffee. I just really find it funny sometimes.

Pupunta ka lang sa starbucks kasama ang buong tropa ng naka ID pa sabay usa usap ng English ng pagka lakas lakas tapos picture picture.

OO na. Ikaw na. CSR ka na. Englishera ka na. Sosyal ka na at may pambili ka na ng branded na kape.

Yabang.

its depressing to go home

It’s been a month of no work for me. Rest. And of course, no money. I decided to resign from my work because of a lot of things. First, I wasn’t enjoying it anymore. Second, the schedule (I have split off which is tue/fri but my mom has only one off which is sunday). Third, I had to go home because my mom is getting depressed.

It all started with the typhoon ondoy. During that particular storm, I wasn’t really aware that it’s gonna be that destructive but anyway I woke up and my dad shouting on the top of his lungs like he always does to get what he wants. I had to get up. I went outside first to see what was the commotion about and was shocked to see that I was raining so hard and the river water beside our house is rising up fast. Flood. I immediately went to the garage to get the clothes and put my cellphone down. To my surprise my dad went and come to get it. He wouldn’t let go and insist that I go fix his fucking tv. There was a typhoon - HELLO. Bottomline - he smashed my cellphone into pieces. It wasn’t much; the value of the phone BUT it was given to me by my auntie from states. All the sentimental value, shattered plus the fact that all my contacts were stored in that particular phone. Stupid of me not to save it in my sim. I was crying and very angry. I have had enough. To make the long story short, I left home. It’s not worth it to stay. I have a stressful work and when I go home it’s still loads of stress for me. I can’t even have a decent sleep. I was earning and I rented. I can support myself. I would only go home, only once a week. I was happy and even gained weight.

Christmas came. I had to work. As the end of the year approaches, some of my workmates already decided to resign. I too was thinking of the same thing. I sacrificed a lot of things and I wasn’t really earning much. In addition, my mom keep texting me that she is getting depressed. Why wouldn’t she be? On Christmas day she didn’t prepare anything and my brother next to me went to Lumban (Laguna) to spend the Holiday with his achay girlfriend. It’s gonna be the new year and am I still going to work? I felt guilty because I’m happy while my mom suffers alone. Forget the double pay. January 30, I passed my resignation letter. After two months of being away, I went home.

It’s been a month that I don’t have work nor money but NO regrets. I’m still looking for a job and so far I’m hoping to get one soon. I don’t want to stay at the home like I used to.

The first two weeks of me not having a job is sort off like a rest and a vacation. As the weeks pass by, its becoming torture. Honestly, I can’t sleep normally anymore. So, daytime I’m asleep and during night time, I find it very hard to sleep. When I went back, it’s different. Dad is quieter now because somebody attends to him already and the he doesn’t remember me anymore which I find convenient. He’s still hyper during the morning though. He and my mom is my alarm clock during the morning. Shouting and curses flying everywhere. There’s no TV and there’s no DVD. There’s no computer and there’s no internet. I would die of boredom.

In order to spend my time, I go outside. I’m either I’m at my boyfriend’s house or in the 24 hour internet cafe. It’s useless to go home anyway. It’s just way too depressing for me. I feel that I’m not part of my family. I don’t get along with my dad or my brother. I just wanna leave. My mom never understands that. I understand her circumstances that she feels like she’s a single parent. I tried complaining and what I got was just sumbat. Maybe I am selfish but I’m sick of it already. I know that she is my mom and worrying for her child will never go away.But when will she realize that someday I would have my own family and live somewhere else. We can’t be together 24 / 7. *Sigh

Highschool

Yesterday I found a couple of highschool pictures hidden in my photobucket account. Looking at it actually bring me good and bad memories. To start it off, highschool days didn't actually went smooth. If i would compare my highschool with college, I would say that definitely i had more fun with college and gain more friends. Honestly, back then i was a mess. I didn't actually make friends because of my attitude. My classmates would always be pissed off at me.

It was third year was actually an eye opener for me which made me changed. As I recall during that period, I was in a different school and a different people. I couldn't fit in or again more friends. I was in constant fights but then again I've learned my ways.

As a look back, should I regret having these memories? Like I said in my past entries, no regrets. These experiences made me who I am. It doesn't really matter if the bad parts of it are more than those of the good parts. The bad parts actually made me more stronger and more mature. Atleast, I'm here to say I've survived, lived on and evolved. I analyze myself, I'm actually nicer now and some of my values have changed. To me, it doesn't matter if I loose friends or don't have one as long as I know that I'm doing right based on my moral and doing my responsibilities then I'm fine. Sometimes, it's lonely but this is my way. I'm actually more of the go with the flow person and doesn't really want to use force. I just stand for my actions and decisions. Anyway, you can't please everybody. People will come and go. Friends, parents and love ones and even me will eventually die. It's a given fact but they will forever mark our memory. We may forget them but its what pictures are useful and thankful for. They make us remember the treasure we have in our mind which is memories.

When I went to college, I met more people; be it in class or the online world. Then comes work where I made more friends. Up until today, I'm still meeting people that will potentially be my friend or another person that will pass my life. Makes two things; stranger or friend. It doesn't matter to me because life isn't really of contest of having millions of friends. It's about leaving a mark that will make the people remember you for the rest of their lives just like our Hero's did.

PS.
I do not intend of becoming a Hero. Hehe. :]

Lots,

mapi