Goodbye 2009, Goodbye KGB, HELLO New Year, HELLO 2010

It's been a year. Within that period of time, I've become a real adult and act / be like one. I'm 21 already but I still feel like a kid and still want to. (hehe!) As I was working, there were many times that I found myself crying, depressed and pressured. It was my first job and I'm in a call center were everything are measured through the numbers that you make which is STATS. If you don't perform or meet the required qualifications either you are issued corrective action or kicked out of the company. You have to work hard to earn the money and build the rank or stats so you can bid for the schedule that you want. Pride kept me going simply because I don't want to put my efforts to waste and loose my job. And Of course, I need to support myself. I don't want to be a burden to my mom.

I've learned to value love ones, friends, time and money. Friends also helped me to cope and adjust to my new life. Since I started to work, I hardly have time for myself, for the people I love or for the things I usually have time to do. It's sad whenever I look back to my old days of being a free loader and a student. It was my fault that I've taken for granted important things and forgot that good things sometimes must come to an end. I don't know whether I'll finish my degree or not. I planned to work and study but I don't want to risk it. If I can't balance the two, it would be a waste of time and money wouldn't it? I don't wanna graduate just for the sake of having a diploma and have any grade written there. And I'm not wishing to be an Honor student because I'm not intelligent. I'm just average. I want something that I can be proud of and achieve my dreams.

As of the moment, I'm going with the flow atleast I can say that for all the things that happened I don't have regrets. Life is a journey. You'll never know what will come and what will happen. I left KGB and will look for another job. I'll still be probably in the call center industry. I'll never forget those memories I've made with KGB and the people. I'm thankful for the TMs, CSRs and friends I've met there. Most of them are nice but I'm not looking forward of doing that job forever. It's not the company I prefer and honestly I hate the account.

Hopefully, next year will be even better.
I'm looking forward to future and what It will bring me.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Lots,

mapi

Christmas

Long time no update. Finally. Had time to sit and write.

Got work during Christmas Day. I've managed to get a swap with my work mate. Traded my off for a saturday off which is 26.

When I was a kid i used to enjoy it. I experienced the traditions of Christmas like opening gifts and going house to house shouting "namamasko po!" with matching new dress and shoes. I will never forget the day someone commented how cute I was then there we so much air in my head that I accidentally stepped a dogs poo! Haha! Went home stinky with lots of money! I also went christmas carolling with the undying song of "sa may bahay". I remember my mom, pretending to be santa and buying us a big sock full of goodies; leaving with in our door knobs for us to see when we wake up then putting up christmas tree with all the gifts underneath.

I grew old then matured. As the years went by, Christmas seems to be gloomier and gloomier. Maybe because every year the cost of living is going higher and higher. I felt it. It went to the point of our house shutting up for good. The windows are close, the doors and my parents hiding from those pesky people who keep knocking. Since then i've lost interest of Christmas. It's like an ordinary day for me now. Now that I'm working I'm used to being away with my family. It's no biggie. Added the fact that I'm in the call center industry where we are not allowed to go on absent. I still do appreciate Christmas. It's the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ and some get to spend time with their family, vacation and rest. Cold weather. And of course, parties! But me? I'm not really fond of going to stuff like that not unless I'm with a group of friends. I'd rather work and get paid double or simply rest. I believe in the saying that everyday can be Christmas day as long as you do good, love and give. Anyway, december 25 is not the exact date that Jesus was born. It was just set so that everybody will remember him. Merry Christmas! :]